Today's post is about something that all mummy's (and daddy's) will understand, the question we all get asked, 'when are you having another?'
From Harry being born I was asked, 'are you going to have anymore?' Jesus, he was 1 day old, how am I meant to answer that?
People seem to think its a reasonable question to keep asking and now Harry's nearing 2 it seems the question is more asked than ever!
When I was younger, before I had harry, I thought I wanted 2 children, you no when you imagine your dream family, mom, dad, 2.4 children, dog, white picket fence, yh that. When harry was born, I thought maybe one more when he's of school age, but over the last year or so, something clicked, and I no now that I never want anymore. I no its a bold statement to make but I'm happy with just one baby, he is everything I ever want and more. I like our family of 3, I like the dynamics and how it works. I don't have a longing for a huge family or more babies.
When I see friends babies I think 'aww bless' but it doesn't make me broody, and the idea of having anymore actually makes me feel a little ill if I'm honest.
The statement is thrown up 'yh but you don't want him being lonely' my answer is, he has 5 cousins, 2 who are only 2yrs older than him, a uncle who is one year older, and our friends have babies too, so he's never going to be lonely, or have no one to play with. Myself having a older brother and sister, I was near enough a only child because they had there own lives and I loved it just being me my mom and dad. My mom is from a huge family of 15 siblings, but she rarely sees any of them, even though we all live within a few miles of each other. Hubby is the oldest and has a brother who is 18 who has a 1yr old son, and one on the way, we don't see him, a sister who lives between his mom and dads house and a little brother 3 who we see every few weeks. I don't think having siblings automatically makes you less lonely
Me and hubby have decided that we would much rather give harry the best life possible and not stretch ourselves out and be unhappy. As silly as it sounds, I worry I wouldn't love another child like I love harry, so it wouldn't be fair, everyone says 'oh don't be daft' but that's the way my mind sees it.
I wouldn't say my health has necessarily put us off the idea of anymore children, but its something I have to think about, would my heart take another pregnancy? I'm not willing to test it out.
Is it selfish of me to just have one baby? Because that's what I want, should I consider Harry in this?
How many children do you have, or want?
Love Lucy x