STOP THE WORLD

 

That's what i feel like screaming today and to be honest the last few weeks have felt the same too. Those bloody single magpies are haunting me.

I no i said i was on a break, and its been a short one i no, a week and im back. I need a platform to stand on and just scream, and you my blogging friends are the perfect listeners.

Today Harry went to the hospital for another one of his eye appointments. They normally go as follows:-

 

We go in (me Gareth and Harry)

We wait

Harry gets annoyed.

We finally get seen

Harry gets wound up at being poked and prodded

Gareth gets het up

They manage to do a few tests

They say its ok

We leave

Today however was different. I went alone to the hospital, just me and Harry. Gareth was at work and i told him not to book the day off as he gets just as agitated as Harry, if not worse when they are doing the tests. We went in, i had put drops in at home 40mins earlier to dilate his pupils. We waiting for no longer than 10mins and was called through.

We finally got to see the head Dr for the eye department, other times we have had to see her colleague as shes been busy on emergency's. She did the tests on Harry, he let her for once and dint get annoyed.

She examined his tear duct and decided that it was blocked, and had been since he was born (they have only just found out which is annoying!!)  She said that was the cause of the constant repeat bouts of conjunctivitis.

Then the treatment was explained to me, 'he will be put to sleep with a general anistetic'

That's it, i was in tears. The thought of my baby boy having to go through that was awful.

She went on to explain what they would do, and to be honest i was hardly listening, i just kept kissing Harry on the head as he sat on my lap unaware of what all she was saying was going to mean for him.

We have to now wait for a appointment through the post. I feel sick, i feel angry, i feel like such a bad mother, ever time he looks at me and smiles, i just think about what hes going to have to go through in a few weeks, months or when ever we get an appointment. How unaware he is, and i no, i fell like saying 'NO YOU CANT DO IT' but deep down, the rational side of me knows it is for his benefit.

this morning - after his drops

I feel like a big red button has been pressed and everything has stopped and wont start again until all this is over and done with and my baby is OK.

I find myself hating on other parents with healthy children and how some of take them for granted, and how they don't have to put them through such horrible things.

I noin reality this is stupid, and it will be for his benefit and it will be over before we all no it. (as 101 people have told me today, again, i no they mean well bu cant help but think 'easy for you to say')

So another ranty post from me. Im sorry.

I hope all you lovelies and your little ones are ok :)

If anyone has ever had esperience with this type of oporation, id LOVE to know what its like and how your little one took to it being done, or being put to sleep.

I think il be back blogging, not every day but when i can as i have missed it.

So blog you soon

Love Lucy x

Ta Ta for now

Hiya all,

 

Ive been blogging for over a year now, and ive decided to take a little break.

 

If im honest ive lost heart with my blog over the last few weeks, i dont no what it is.

 

I have alot of things going on in my life at the moment, both good and bad, some things being, Harry potty training, me currently in the middle of setting up my own business, my moms brother dying Sunday, health problems on my own front.

So all these joined together are just overwhelming, so blogging taking the back seat.

 

I love the blogging community and have made some lovely friends from it, so i will be back, i just need a break.

 

I hope to be back quite soon, i dont want to be away to long because i no i will miss it all.

 

So i hope to be back soon with some lovely new interesting things going on.

 

Love Lucy x

 

Potty training - Week 1

Hiya all,

As the title gives away, were currently in the swing of things with potty training.

Monday saw day one, Harry decided of his own accord, we didn't force him. Monday morning, he came downstairs and when we took off his nighttime nappy, he said 'wee wee' and went over to the potty. Lo and behold, he did one!!

Now hes used the potty on and off for the last few months as well as asking to go on the big toilet in the bathroom, but never grasped the feeling of knowing before hes done a wee, he would just sit on the potty and after a time he would do a wee.

But Monday seemed different, like he wanted to use it, so we persevered and all day Monday he didn't have a nappy on, but big boy pants :) each time he did a wee, he got a star on his chart. He went to sleep with no nappy on, got right up and went to have a wee once he woke. He went to my sisters with no nappy on whilst i went to the Dr's, he took his potty and he didn't use it, but didn't have any accidents either. Mondays total was 4 wees.

Tuesday, he didn't want to use the potty, he kept asking all day for a nappy, this was because he needed a poo, he will not, for love nor money (believe us we have promised him money!) do a poo on the potty. He did however, when we were getting PJ's on, say 'wee wee' and off he took himself for a wee on the potty before bedtime. Tuesdays total 1 wee.

Wednesday was a good day, all day he had big boy pants on again, his choice, and he went over to the potty each time, taking down his pants and having a wee, getting a gold star each time, resulting in my niece Evie, telling him how she was 'very proud of him for being a big boy' this made my day her saying that. Wednesdays total 6 wees.

Thursday, he again, wanted a nappy on all morning. Then afternoon he wanted pants on and was very good, using the potty. Thursdays total 1 wee.

Friday, well were still going through today, but so far hes cried for a nappy, and lo and behold, 2mins after i put him a nappy on he did a poop! I changed him and he asked for pants to be put back on instead of a nappy. Hes napped, and must of had a wee while asleep as he woke up wet, but i changed him and hes wearing his pants and has used the potty again, so far Friday total 2 wees.

Ive very very proud of his progress, i always said i would never pressure him and let him do it at his own rate and night time hes still wearing a nappy, its only early days, i don't want to overwhelm him.

However, id LOVE some tips how we could get round the pooing on the potty lark. He wont poo on the big toilet either, its like hes scared, which is awful, I've tried to reassure him and hold his hands and talk to him while hes sitting there, but it results in tears and him screaming hysterically for a nappy back on. Which i obviously give in to, not sure if i should though. Hes been told, a poo

So that's the potty training round up, any tips at all, i would love.

Having a read :)

Lucy x

He meant well

Hiya,

So its Valentines Day incase you been under a rock for a few weeks and hadt noticed :)

Were not real fans of it all in our house, me and Gareth get cards and a silly something but thats about it.

This year i got a lovely surprise of a moonpig card through the post. (last week not today he forgot to write the 'do not open' bit on the envelope)

It made my day to be honest!

He did however get the year wrong, only 2 years out (2004) but hey, who cares. The fact it had 'found love on lyng field', made my heart melt. Yes we met on a field, we're classy you see!

Even lovelier was the inside, he had written his own words which were beautiful.

He then posted this on his facebook:-

I bloody love him. Bang goes the healhy eating.

He also got me a box of chocs and send me another card, again from moonpig, to say thank you for looking after him when he was ill with nuro virus, now I've been blogging for just over a year and i think you all know my name, Lucy. Well my lovely partner, we have been together nearly 9years doesnt it seems!!

Whoever Shirley is il never no, but apparently, shes the best! I do wonder if shirley got a 'thank you lucy' card? (the inside was fine and had my actual name in it, he says he didnt see that the front needed editing)

anyway, he did mean well bless him.

I hope you all had a lovely day, weather you celebrate it or not.

Love Lucy x

Baking Mad - Valentines day brownies

Hiya all,

Ive mentioned a few times before how much Harry enjoys baking with me, hes a huge fan, i however, am a rubbish baker, and always have to follow a recipe, the baking and cooking genes all went to my big sister (who makes amazing cakes!!)

So when i came across Baking mad with amazing recipes for kids, and a level from easy to hard to choose from, its perfect.

It lays out all the ingredients you need with weights and really easy step by step instructions. Perfect for me and Harry.

I decided we would make some brownies using there valentines day recipe. Gareth's a huge fan of brownies and the prep time and cooking time (which is on the website too) was 10mins and 30mins so great for 2year olds that can easily get distracted.

 

So with all our ingredients ready we set about baking :)

 

 

The recipes on baking mad are very easy to follow, with hints and tips, and the opportunity to tweak them yourself to your own taste.

 

 

Harry loves mixing, so mixing the butter and chocolate together was he perfect job for him.

 

 

 

As you can see from his mucky face, he also loves tasting the mix as he goes along!

 

 

Once the mixes were folded together as to not lose the air from the mix, it was time to put the mix in a brownie tin and pop it in the oven (mommy did this and not harry)

 

 

Then as we waited for the 25min for the brownies to cook, i cleaned up and Harry got to do his favourite bit - licking the spoon :)

 

 

When cooled we cut it up into square pieces, but you could just as easily use a heart shaped cutter, just that bit more romantic for valentines day.

 

When Gareth came home we served him up a slice

 

 

Icing sugar does wonders!

 

So there we have it, a great low cost idea for your loved ones this valentines day.

 

If your after some ideas, what every your loved ones tastes, be it biscuits, cupcakes or brownies, baking mad has all the Valentines day baking recipe you could ever need.

 

Happy baking

 

Lucy x

Trendy tuesday - Sale bargains & a tattoo

Hiya all,

My Trendy Tuesday post this week is going to show you 3 new tshirts Harry's got this week, i picked all 3 up in the asda sale, all 3 id seen at full price so when is saw them i had to snap them up.

Woody & Superman tshirts, i loved them when i saw them first time and they were cheap at full price at £5 each and i though when payday comes il get them for Harry, but luckily for me they had been reduced to £3 in the sale so i grabbed them.

I love how they have the pattern front and back and look fab with a simple pair of jeans, harry loves fancy dress so its a great balance for him.

bit of a false smile there harry??

Then i picked up this top for £2 which i couldn't not buy for £2, its just like one gaz has, and im a sucker for making them dress in similar outfits.

Ive used the websites picture because its currently in the washing basket after wearing it whilst baking! whooops

 

And finally, the tattoo part of the title, well Gareth's a huge tattoo fan,(i must do a post on them one day) and he loves how Harry takes a interest in them, he has decided to let Harry have the choice of what he has tattood on his full leg tattoo (cant call it a sleeve as thats a arm, but you no what i mean)

 

(mouth looks a little odd but it had just been done and was a bit bloody still)

 

So as you guess, Harry decided on woody, to go with sid the sloth from ice age, but dont dispare, he wont be alone, buzz is coming next time (3weeks time)  and then tow mater, lightening McQueen, army men from toy story, you guessed it, it will be a Disney characters leg :)

 

This is the reason i adore Gareth, he doesnt care one bit.

Harry's reaction to the woody tattoo was 'oh my god - yee harr'

 

So theres my Trendy Toddler (and trendy tattoo) offering, jump on over to www.medicatedfollower.com to check out and join in yourself :)

 

Love Lucy x

#justiceforjames

Hiya all,

As most of you will of heard be in via newspaper, TV, Internet or radio, it will be the 20th anniversary tomorrow of James Bulgers horrific and brutal death.

Weather young or old, the name James Bulger will be imprinted in your mind. The 2 year old was taken whilst shopping with his mother and brutally murdered by 2 then ten year old boys.

I wont say anymore about his killing as im sure you will already no how awful it was.

20 years on, and i believe James family still have not had justice for what happened to there son. The scum bag killers, im sorry that's what they are, and that's putting it politely, both have new lives, new identity's, and are both aloud to have lives when they so brutally took James. How is this fair?

James mother has been doing alot of interviews on TV and radio and i just cant imagine the pain she and her family go through every minute of the day knowing the scum responsible of killing her son, her baby, are out living there lives.

Each time i see James image, my heart stops for a moment, my blood runs cold thinking about it all. I find myself holding Harry close, hes the same age as James was. James has a similar look to Gareth's little brother, same colour hair. James birthday is the same date at Gareth's, and i think, he should be doing all the same things Gareth is, but he wasn't given the chance. All these things run through my mind, something needs to be done to bring James and his family some justice.

As a mother, well as a human being, when i think about the 'things' that did this to this boy, i think they deserve nothing but pain and suffering for the rest of there lives, and still then that would be too good. I'm not sure where i stand on the death penalty as a whole, but in this case, and any case where a innocent child's been killed, id quite easily administer the drug myself. The world doesn't need such vile things wondering the streets.

If you have a spare minute, could you pop over and follow the twitter account run by the James Bulger Memorial Trust @Jbmt1 over there there is also a epetition you can sign to help get #JusticeForJames

And dont forget to give your little ones an extra big cuddle as i will be doing with Harry.

Love Lucy x

Thank you for my awards :)

Hiya all,

Its seems like its award season all round be it MADs, the brits, or golden globes. But i really want to say thank you so much to all the lovely bloggers that have given me a Liebester award over the last few weeks. This award is given to bloggers with less than 200 followers who deserve acknowledgement and encouragement to keep on blogging. I have already blogged my 1st award i was given, so instead of doing one post for each one i will answer all the questions on this post and thank the award givers :)

11 questions from 'my life as harrys mum' the nominated bloggers

1. What got you into blogging?
I blogged as a beauty blogger after watching youtube beauty videos, then i stopped when pregnant because of being so ill, then last year i just decided i missed it and needed blogging back in my life

2. If you could chose to live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
Here, as sad as it sounds, im such a homebird, i don't live in a particularly nice area, well its not to people who dont live here but when you have lived somewhere all your life, its yours and i love it here surrounded by all my family

3. Tell us one thing you love about yourself.
I dont really love anything about myself, however i love how my body made such a perfect little boy.

4. What makes you smile on a grey Monday morning?
My Harry giving me cuddles, or coming to give me a kiss, when he holds my cheeks, always makes my heart melt bless him

5. What is your favourite song/band?
hard to say really i love so many different types of music, i did a post on some of my favourites here

6. Beer, wine or cocktails?
Im such a cheap date, im a cider drinker and good old lambrini

7. Kindle or paperback and why?
I like a hardback because i like how they look on a bookshelf, simple as that :)

8. Are you a cat or dog person? You are allow to be a bunny or even a spiders person for that matter, just tell us what is your favorite pet and why!
Dog and horses, had them both ever since i can remember, we have 2 lovely little jack russells and we dont currently have a horse, however my brother does.

9. What is your favorite tv series?
BIG BANG THEORY! its just amazing i laugh so much at it.

10. Gym, outdoor or home workout/activity and why?
neither, i hate excercise and excersise hates me

Questions from ups and downs, smiles and frowns:

1) If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be? 


 Here, as sad as it sounds, im such a homebird, i dont live in a particularly nice area, well its not to people who dont live here but when you have lived somewhere all your life, its yours and i love it here surrounded by all my family (same as question 2 from above)


 







2) What is your favourite child hood memory?   
 I would have to say the memorys i have of being with my nans, they passed away when i was young (5/6) but i have small memorys of seeing them in hospital, and them looking after me before they go ill
 



3) Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?
Id love for my busniess that were currently setting up to be a sucess, for Harry to be doing really well at school and for us to have our own house and mortgage. (and for my best friend to have had a baby! yes you lucy, just checking your reading this hehe)
         






4) What is your ideal night out? (Or night in if you prefer)     


 Night in, chinese food, and cake! yummy :)





5) Who inspires you the most?     
My family, im so very proud of each and everyone of them, all for different reasons. but lets just say, if i can be half the mother to harry as my mom has been and still is to me, i will be happy.
  


6) What's your favourite all time movie?        

Again hard to choose, but the one i no every word to has to be grease   
        


7) What made you start blogging?
  I blogged as a beauty blogger after watching youtube beauty videos, then i stopped when pregnant because of being so ill, then last year i just decided i missed it and needed blogging back in my life (same as question 1 from above)            
       


8) What's your favourite flavor ice cream?    
raspberry ripple in summer on hot days or for all year round eating, has to be cookie dough             
     




9) Do you prefer winter or summer?   
id say winter, i like wrapping up warm         
            

10) What is your phobia?               
spiders, knives, voile fabric
  

11) Post a photograph of your family :)

i have a huge extended family and dont think we have a group picture, so this is my own little family

 

11 Questions from 'little dream girl'

1. Favourite film and why?

grease, just makes me happy everytime i watch

2. Favourite band/song

hard to say really i love so many different types of music, i did a post on some of my favourites here

3. Food you cannot resit

Chinese food, and also black forest gateaux ooo and pickles (onions/beetroot/cabbage)

 

4. Favourite book

Harry potter series, but i do enjoy a good autobiography

 

6. Best place you have visited

i love London, the history, the culture the traditions, love it all.

7. Dream holiday destination

id love to take Harry to disneyland/world (always get confused) maybe in a few years when ive saved up.

8. Is the glass half empty or half full?

id like to think half full, but these last few weeks its been half empty

9. The last sentence you spoke

bye see you soon (auntie and uncle just left)

10. Favourite website/webpage

www.playpennies.com some great baragins and promotional codes posted on there daily

11. Three things you wish for this year

health, happiness and fun for all my lovely friends and family

 

So there we go, thank you all, i hope ive seen all the awards ive been given and these questions give you more of a insight to my crazy self :)

 

Love Lucy x

Angels Delights - bracelet & charm review

Hiya all,

When i tell people i don't wish to have any more children, im met with may responses, one being 'wouldnt you like a girl though' and my answer is no, not really. I am a VERY lucky auntie to have 5 beautiful nieces, (age between 22-5) who between them have let me share all the lovely times in a girls life with them, ranging from starting school, Easter bonnets, proms, moving house and much much more. I am very proud of each and every one of them and i love spending time with them, doing girly things. (I also love doing the boyish muddy, pretending to be dinosaurs/fireman Sam/bob the builder things with Harry too)

When i was asked by the lovely new company Angels Delights, if i would be interested in doing a product review for there new bracelet and charm range, 2 little 5year old girls sprung right to my mind. My 2 youngest nieces Evie & Jess.

I was very kindly sent a bubblegum bracelet and charms for each of them.

Each bracelet is lovingly hand made and distributed by a family run business, which i love the idea of. I was very tempted to be a naughty auntie and keep them for myself, but i will be kind and share with them.

I love the idea of the girls being able to add to there collection and collect there charms, like a age appropriate version of a Pandora or Thomas sabo bracelet. The charms easily clip on with a lobster claw clasp, so can be changed round as they wish. I think it would be a great idea for them to get a charm for a birthday, Christmas, getting a good school report etc, a real incentive and lovely keep sake for them too.

(I let Evie choose 2, and Jessica will choose 2 the next time i see her, that will leave 2 which i will give them one each for easter)

The charms are all cake and sweetie themed, cookies, cakes, ice creams to name just a few. They are also hand made, the time and effort that goes into them really shows as they are so cute and detailed, my camera does not do them justice. They really do look good enough to eat.

Like i said id love to keep them for myself, because although they are aimed at young girls (age 5+), i would 100% wear one. (and will more than likely go and buy myself  and my best friend one from the new web store, if you read this Luce, this is your birthday prezzie this year)

All the items can be purchased online at there webstore, bracelet is priced at £5 which i really do think is a bargain, a great gift idea for any girl. The charms come in at a very reasonable £2.50-£3.00 each. Or for a brilliant price of £9.99 you can grab yourself a 'angels suprise' which by you get a bubblegum bracelet, randomly selected charms all wrapped up in a angel delights candy bag.

Over all im in love with this fabulous company. I can see them going really far and theres a definite big thumbs up for them from here. I defiantly will be buying in the future, for both my nieces and myself.

someones happy!

Love Lucy x

then i saw one magpie . .

Hiya all,

Oh i do wish i was less superstitious, growing up in a house where new shoes were NEVER to be put on a table, umbrellas were NEVER to be opened indoors and fingernails were NEVER to be cut on a Sunday, (that's just a few)  all because its bad luck, has caused me to be as superstitious as i am.

You no when you feel theres periods of time where everything just goes either right or wrong, good or bad, id say i was definitely going through one of the bad times. These grey days don't help.

Things come in threes, that's another one, things happen in 3s my dads always believed, you hear of one pregnancy, its always followed by another 2. You hear of one death, within a week you will hear of another 2. Anyway, on Saturday when i was told about our friends car just breaking down for no reason, then within the hour, my brothers on the phone, his work vans broken down too. Yep you guessed it here comes number 3, I went out to my car to go shopping, to find this!!!!

A huge nail in my tire :(

Sunday came and Gareth was struck by the dreaded sickness bug, hes been really poorly, (hes now on the mend) so hes been stuck in the bedroom, moaning because he cant go to work, he hates being still. So much so that hes demanded he goes in to work today, even though we have ALL warned him against it, he was last sick on Monday but hes still not 100%, theres no telling some people! So on the way taking him to work this morning, 1 single magpie had to fly low past my car didn't it, i looked and looked for a 2nd to no avail.

So you no what that means (if your me anyway) 1 for sorrow, 2 for joy. . .

Why do i have to be so bloody superstitious.

And to top it all off i now have a head ache and sickly feeling, Ive got everything crossed that im not going to get struck down :(

Im going to do my best to not think negative thoughts and think positive, im off to buy new pillows and bed sheets, and fumigate the bedroom of germs with good old dettol i think.

Hope all you lovelies and your little ones are ok

Love Lucy x

PS:- hope your all now singing 'very superstistious' by stevie wonder after reading this post, as i am, and it will be stuck in my head all day no doubt. . .

Trendy Tuesday - The one with the bright colours

Hiya all,

Well ive been a bi naughty and been slacking on the blogging front i think. and especially my favourite linky of the week, Trendy Tuesday. Gareth down with the dreaded sickness bug :( so hes quarantined in the bedroom and were all fingers crossed that none of us catch it from him.

Anyway onto Harry.

Harry's loving pointing out colours now hes learned them, and with these grey days everything is better with a bit of colour so what better excuse than to dress in as many colours as possible. If you cant get away with it when your 2 when else can you.

'Harry let me take a photo of your lovely outfit'

 

That's what he did when i asked!

I did get some better pictures though.. . .

Top - Sainsburys

Trousers - H&M

Trainers - Converse

Cardigan - Tkmaxx

Harry's age 3 clothes are getting a bit to short or tight, especially trousers, which is worrying seeing as hes not 3 yet :( The midwife did warn me he would grow up to be a big tall boy when he was born. Wheres my baby gone??
I am however going to be stocking his wardrobe up in the next few weeks - any excuse.

So there we have it. My trendy toddler on this Tuesday. Don't forget to jump on over to the lovely alexs blog  www.medicatedfollower.com and say hi and join in too!

Love Lucy x

Bakers days - Letterbox cake review

Hiya all,

I'm always on the look out for new and interesting way to either thank people or ideas for wishing them a happy birthday, or even a new house present. So when Baker Days contacting asking if id like to review one of there valentines letter box cakes, i was more than happy to say the least.

I had never heard of a letter box cake, the two had never come together in my mind, surely any cake sent my post would reach the recipient in a less than appetising condition, or so i thought.

I went onto bakerdays website and was met by a huge range (over 400) of not only designs for any occasions but five different flavours for cakes too, i think its great that they do a gluten& wheat free version. Really is something for everyone.

I decided on one of there valentines designs and when a little white box landed oin the hallway, i thought that there was no way there was a cake inside. I was very ecited to open the parcel but half worried about the condition it may be in.

The cake was in perfect condition, in a beautiful tin. I was shocked and amazed at the same time.

I sneakily parcelled it back up and waited for Gareth to come home, and me and Harry surprised him.

This day he had had a rather poop day at work, working 6am-6pm, so when we said he had to close his eyes and there was going to be a surprise, he perked up and seemed excited.

He opened the box and looked a bit puzzled at first, Harry then told him to open the tin, and when he did, he was very surprised, and pleased.

The cake i decided on was for Gareth, not only personalised with a name but they had Incorporated the picture id sent in of Gareth's face too, im a sucker for personalisation. I had got them to have it say 'Happy Valentines Day - all our love Lucy & Bobo' This really made him smile.

Gareth couldn't believe it was an actual real cake and that it had been through the postal system. He even pinched the icing on the side, just to check it was real.

 He remarked how much of a good idea it is, he has a great aunt that live a distance away from us and we don't get to see and her family them often. He often sends her flowers for her birthday, but he said how this would really surprise her and would be something really different.

Now onto the important bit - taste!

Harry was first to try some, and wolfed down a slice, (so quick i wasnt able to take a picture) as did my niece who thought it was very funny that it had Gareth's face on. I then tried it and was shocked at how tasty it actually was. Very moist and not overly sweet, a really nice tasting sponge and icing.

The cakes from bakers days cost from £14.99 for a small cake which i think is reasonable for how it comes presented, we have paid nearly £30 to get a small bunch of flowers delivered to his aunt, so this would be a bargain in comparison, and just as, if not more, personal and thoughtful.

Bakerdays has a huge range of products, for any occasion you can think of. I for sure would love to receive one, i just think there genius.

 

www.bakerdays.com

Love Lucy x